Tonight as I read through all my emails, catch up with people on ICQ and go back to all the sites I so often visit, I think back to the day I decided to do this and try to remember what it was that made me want to do this\u2026I am pretty sure it was because I loved the free and liberating feeling I got from typing out all my \u00a0dreams\/observations\/feelings\/frustrations, and also being able to share just a little piece of my world.<\/p>\n
Now in retrospect, I see that I really haven\u2019t even scratched the surface, I actually have been somewhat cheating at this by not sharing with you the things that TRULY, honestly disturb, annoy, inspire and motivate me. I guess it is because I was a little scared about the things I may say in here.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m not afraid of what any stranger reads in this, or any friend of mine, for that matter. It\u2019s just that there are things going on in my life that I would like to talk about here but I guess I just didn\u2019t have the courage to do so just for the simple fact that my mother is watching! O.K., there, I\u2019ve said it.<\/p>\n
BTW: \u201cHi, Mom!\u201d LOL. Not to say that I don\u2019t SHARE with my mom, I do. I don\u2019t keep much from her, and I would not mind her reading about my life here in this page but I prefer to share these things with her in person. Do you get where I\u2019m coming from? Man, I must be crazy because this has kind of been plaguing me for a couple of months, now.<\/p>\n
So here it is: I\u2019ve decided that from tonight on, this will be a no-holds-barred, no bull, no hiding from reality entry page, and I promise that to you. I know that alot of people who read online diaries\/journals and such do so just for this purpose, because I am one of them. We like to creep into the minds of people, to get an insight of how they live and how they feel about it.<\/p>\n
Whew. Now that I got that out, I\u2019m sure that this will be alot easier on me from now on. I mean, what\u2019s harder? Trying to force out pleasantries or getting out your gut feelings? I\u2019d prefer to go with the latter, myself, and I do hope that those of you reading me in here don\u2019t think of my past entries as ingenuine, or phony, \u2019cause they\u2019re not. I\u2019ve always posted my own stuff, my own real thoughts, all straight off the top of my head right to the keyboard. But just not enough to satisfy myself. Don\u2019t forget that I do this for ME! LOL\u2026so I might as well do it right\u2026<\/p>\n
Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain<\/strong>: Do you watch The Wizard of Oz when it comes on every year? Did you ever wonder how the name Oz was created? Apparently, the man who created the story, Frank Baum, was trying to think of a name. He looked around the room for inspiration when he spied a small file cabinet with two drawers marked A – N and O – Z. The rest is history.<\/p>\n \nOther posts on this day:<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Tonight as I read through all my emails, catch up with people on ICQ and go back to all the sites I so often visit, I think back to the day I decided to do this and try to remember what it was that made me want to do this\u2026I am pretty sure it was … <\/p>\nSame day, different year..<\/h3>\n