Seems that, for a long time, my life has been a cycle of being in and out, of a complete, chaotic, mess. Money’s been too tight (and since November, practically non-existent), and I’m stressing out because I either have too much to do or not enough to do.
It’s my own damned fault, I suppose. I could be getting more work. Or more money, somehow. A little back-story…for those who don’t already know… I run my own business from home, which can be scary sometimes if you don’t plan things well.
But it’s hard to be out and about trying to get contracts and meet people all day long and then go home and work for 12 hours more.
I suppose I could get a part time job, but then when would I sleep? I’m the only person working here, so it’s not like I could just delegate some tasks to a staff member!
If I continue this cycle of neglecting my own self-care, rest, and health, and spending 12-16 hours working every day, soon I will be dead. When I’m working, I neglect myself. My hair won’t get washed every day, I won’t take care to eat the right things, and I smoke too much. I love my job…but it’s ruining my health.
So I’m trying some new things…like not working one day a week and just spending that day doing meetings or marketing/making calls. Then I will spend the rest of that day not doing a damned thing but having “me” time.
I will give it the ol’ college try and post how it goes.
~TTFN